Cannabis Addiction :: Cure To My Derealization / Depersonalization?


Jan 12, 2012

I'm 16 years old. I only smoked weed from the middle of September to November 28th and since I quit I've had some withdrawal symptoms: headaches (went away), sleepiness throughout the day (still there), insomnia (I got this like a week and a half ago and I'm pretty sure this is over now), depression (still there), short term memory loss (this just came about a week and a half ago and it's still there), & anxiety/derealization/depersonalization (still there and is the worst of it all)

From a lot of what I read a lot people who go through derealization from weed had experienced derealization while high, never touched it since, and then go through derealization sober (because their brain is still "scared"; that's just my thought on this). I feel like what happened was that a "switch" was turned on in my brain from too much weed, and smoking (just a little bit) again and getting a good, pleasant high would turn that switch off and basically tell my brain that everything's ok as long as I don't overdo it (my panic attack came from smoking WAY too much good weed at once). It makes sense to me but I wanted other opinions on this

Now I know you're probably thinking this is stupid, but I just don't think that since I only smoked for 2 1/2 months I should still have derealization after almost a month and a half of being sober. Now it has gotten better in the past 45 days; I've even seen an improvement since New Years but this is taking a huge toll on me. Now for the reason I say weed could possibly be my cure: From what I understand about DP/DR, it's something that "gains it's power" from worrying about it. And I know when I smoke weed I forget all the BS.

Then again I feel like weed could possibly make things worse than they already are and I don't wanna make these past 45 days wasted time and end up back in square 1. I read that it could take 6 months for this to be over but those were cases for 1+ year smokers. Will it still take 6 months for my 2 month use??? And because I still feel this way I feel like I messed up my brain for good. I just want my memory and sense of reality back!!

PS: I'm planning on going back to weed in the future (I'm talking once a month/every other month, maybe every 3 months) so should I start in moderation now or wait 'til everything's over?

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4.12.2012 I smoked ak-47 and it was just awesome. But I freaked out a little and it got me depersonalization and derealization. Depersonalization is almost insensible. And derealization - I think I've already been feeling like this,  in childhood.

I also smoked weed in 21.12. and 31.12.. It was not as awesome as it used to be, while high, I was little scared that I might stay in dr forever.

Sucks. I have not visited psychiatrist yet, I'm going to do this month. I really don't think it's any bad (while reading other's stories, I must say my story is peaceful towards theirs'), I don't have panic attacks or anxiety (just ordinary problems such as school). It's just dr/dp.

Okay, I expect it will take up to 2 months before I will be completely healthy.

Will I ever be able to smoke weed again? (and not getting into those dr/dp things)

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