Anxiety :: Nervous Breakdown - Memory Loss And Damaged Permanently

Sep 18, 2015

In March of 1980, I had my first nervous breakdown.... and the reason that I use this old term is because it's the closest thing to being accurate.  Symptoms included a sensation of electrical discharge.  I lost quite a bit of my personal memory banks.   I was in the hospital due to depression, and from the hospital I went to many facilities before recouping enough to live on my own again.  I thought it impossible that I could have anything even remotely like this again.   But since that time I have had 3 more breakdowns in my life.   Now my memory is horribly damaged, but the kind of loss does not appear in psych testing.   The psych testing that is done can not test for personal memory.  Things like memory for faces... for conversation... for what you did on a given day....for where you parked your car at the ball game.   All of that is severely damaged.     My wife looks out for me, but she does not truly understand what is wrong.  I wish I could explain it to her.   It's tough to explain to anybody.   And, I've never found another soul who went thru this.... that is, anxiety leading to permanent personal/mental damage.

I am new to this site, so perhaps there has been others who have gone thru this.   What I cannot understand is why mine was permanent.    I've read about so many folks who went thru this or that, only to get better.   But the electrical discharge I felt in 1980...that was real.... and seemingly unique.  Wondering if anyone has ever heard of anything remotely like this..... 

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Thyroid :: Hashimoto's - Hair Loss, Depression, Anger, Memory Loss And Weight Gain

I am a 25 year old female and I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Disease probably around 2012 or so. I take 75MCG every morning and I do blood tests about once or twice a year to make sure my levels are stable. What I need help with are symptoms. My boyfriend has been very supportive, he was the reason I went to get the initial blood test because he said my symptoms reminded him of Graves Disease and it worried him. Well, I went to the doctor and got the tests done and he told me I had Hashimotos. Since then, my boyfriend has told me that he hasn't seen any improvement in my symptoms, in fact he thinks they've gotten worse. I have looked at a lot of different lists of symptoms that people with Hashimoto's Disease can experience and I experience a lot of them. I'll list the ones I experience the most and a little bit of a description to each so maybe someone can help me with what I need to do to feel better because honestly it makes me miserable.

-Hair Loss - Every time I brush or wash my hair there is always tons of hair in the brush or tub. It's everywhere all the time, I shed like the cats.

- Depression - I don't know if it is actually depression, but a lot of the time I feel like I'm just not good enough to be around anyone. I'll find myself crying at ridiculous moments with absolutely no reason for it. I also find myself thinking that people I know (and can acknowledge even when I'm feeling this way) love and care for me, and yet I still think they don't care about me and will abandon me at the drop of the hat, which breaks me down mentally.

- Stress - This is probably one of my worst symptoms. I am always stressed out about something, even ridiculous things that shouldn't be stressing me out. One of the biggest things I stress about is what I mentioned with the depression. I feel like my friends and loved ones are going to abandon me at any minute, which scares me and results in me lashing out at them in ways that if I can't control it soon enough may result in them actually leaving, which terrifies me and just puts me into a never ending loop of stress and depression.

- Anger - I can't seem to rationalize other people's behaviors. Completely normal behaviors that don't normally bother me result in me lashing out and screaming at people and saying things that I don't mean to say.

- Memory Loss - This is a really bad symptom. I forget things very quickly. If I don't actively keep it in my mind, I won't remember it. A perfect example, when I was still in college I was walking through town with some people and when we were going back to the dorms I made a comment about a truck I saw. I used to see it all the time and hadn't seen it in a while so I made the comment. The people I was with looked at me really confused and just flatly stated "You said the exact same thing when we walked by it on the way out" and I honestly don't remember seeing it at any point that day. In fact I didn't remember seeing it for around 5 months, and yet they claimed that I made the exact same comment I just had, earlier that day. It really messes with my head when people tell me that I did or said something and I can't remember doing it to save my life.

- Weight - Before I started taking synthroid I weighed 110 lbs, after I started taking it I gained like 30 lbs and I can't lose it. I'm stuck between 135 and 140 (I'm about 5'6" tall)

- Headaches - I get headaches on a daily basis. Sometimes they're really bad but generally they're just a slight discomfort in my frontal lobe area.

- Sleep - It takes me forever to fall asleep and even when I do I can't stay asleep and then I feel exhausted all day when I wake up, as if I never slept at all.

Another thing I've noticed and that is that sometimes I feel like I can't swallow properly, I always feel like I have to yawn to get a lung full of oxygen, and my nails curl downward along the curve of the tip of my fingers on like 3/5 fingers.

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I can not remember what I did in 1996.  I have researched my personal papers but nothing can clearly tell me anything concrete.  

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Im 19 years old and my memory has gotten real bad. I forget just about everything if someone tells me to do something I forget what they told me the next minute. Or I just forget the whole thing until they bring it back up or ask me again. I always seem to forget important things. Now its kind of affecting me at work if a coworker of mine asks me to do something I always forget. Im constantly lost in space alot. Is this something to worry about or just a really bad memory?

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I am a 61 years old male alcoholic and my memory is very bad. Is this normal?

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Schizophrenia :: Getting Paranoid With Memory Loss

So basically I'm a teen girl. Over the past 2 years I have been having these symptoms and they have been more apparent these past days. My anxiety has been raising and there are times when I'm super happy and then a second later I get super depressed. I'll get paranoid and scared of I don't even know. I have terrible memory and can't remember a lot of things. My parents yell at me for not doing things they asked me to do, but I don't even remember. My teacher was crying one day and I smiled at her. I know I shouldn't do that, but that's how I reacted. I'll hear things like whispers and someone saying my name, but that's all. I can't perceive any actual words, just sound. One time I thought someone had said my name and blew into my ear. I've also seen thing that I know aren't there. For a while I just thought to myself everyone has those kind of moments so it's fine. But then yesterday I thought I saw an actual person standing there. I was so scared and told myself is wasn't real and it was gone. Then today I thought I saw a kid in the parking lot, but when I looked again they weren't there. Just like I thought there was something on my friend today, but when I blinked it was gone. I'm so scared now that its going to happen one time and it's not going to be gone after I blink. That one day I'll actually be able to talk to the voices. Then I even question if it was real or just imaginary so many times everyday. They only thing that helps is to listen to music during the day. I'm also losing interest in a bunch of things I used to love. I would also self harm as punishment. I don't even know what for, but I just think I have too. My grandfather has schizophrenia also.

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I have always had an issue with forgetting and losing things but it has been getting consistently worse over the past few months and I'm not quite sure who i would speak to. I am only 25 but tend to work very long hours in a stressful job, I'm sure this contributes to my memory loss but i think there might be an underlying reason.

What seems to happen is when I put an item down i forget it is there and when i leave don't even notice i don't have it.

For example I might be on a train, put my coat on the seat next to me, get to my stop and walk off the train without even noticing I don't have it. I leave laptops and iPads on tables and walk off and its becoming an more regular accurance.

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Three weeks ago I noticed my daughter (age 38) could not remember anything from 10 or 15 minutes and kept asking the same questions - She seemed confused.   I took her to the hospital and they began running test.  After 2 days she was having difficulty standing so I had to help her stand and then she could walk -  after 4 days she could not stand or walk at all.     Her legs and arms both have some numbness, burning sensations, and pain.    The MRI scan shows no issues - they have run MRI, CatScan, EEG, EMG, Muscle Biopsy, Spinal Tap,  all sorts of blood work and after three weeks have found nothing except some vitamin deficiency.   She still cannot walk and has confusion and short term memory -   Has anyone heard of anything like this.   Is it possible that is vitamin deficiency? 

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** I'm folding laundry, I hold up a shirt to fold it and I go blank, I can't remember what it is, how to fold it.

** I'm telling someone how to spell the word " letter" and say L-E-T as in cat and they say "what?" and I repeat it "T as in cat"

** My toothbrush is grey, my husband's green. I get both toothbrushes out, run water on them and put toothpaste on them. Five minutes later, I can't remember which one is mine, so I wait for my husband to brush his teeth so I know which one is mine.

I've got many more examples...the scariest of which is:

Driving at 5am on an access road, felt like the car turned sidewise, everything went black, when I could see, I realized I was trying to negotiate a curve and I didn't know where I was.

My MRI was looked at by the radiologist and a neurologist. The only thing out of the ordinary was: A few subcortical T2 hyperintensities in both hemispheres-more on the right. Several flair punctate hyperintensities in the occipital lobes bilaterally unchanged from previous exam (2006)

Mild or early age-related microvascular ischemic changes mostly likely account for the few subcortical T2 hyperintensities observed.
My neurologist wants me to have neuropsychological testing done. He says that the MRI does not explain the things that are happening. "something is going on and we can't just attribute it to getter older"

I have a continual tremor..sometimes even in my head (I take lithium..probably a side effect). Had a 6 month experience of some kind of neuropathy in my left arm last year. Just recently developed numbness, tingling, and burning in my right hand and now it's in the left hand too. I have headaches most every day..some are very short. I'm also on a lot of medications.


My question, if the MRI isn't showing anything what could the testing show besides memory loss/approaching dementia?

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Sjogren's Syndrome :: Brain Fog And Memory Loss

I am concerned about my memory, 32 year old, diagnosed when I was 30. Mind goes blank, forget names of people I know. Mentioned this to my consultant and told it's just the tiredness. Mentioned it on another occasion and told I'd have to see my GP. Eventually went to my GP who said they'd never heard of SS causing memory issues but I've had people on the BSSA say they have the same thing. When I went to my GP I was presented with a sheet of paper with tests I felt were embarrassing, both me and my GP agreed I could quite easily pass these but if for any reason I didn't she'd have to refer me to a psychiatrist which she really didn't want to do. I agreed there's nothing wrong with my mental health but I would have thought I'd be referred for a MRI. Why do I get brushed aside - this condition is bad enough without being ignored as well. I'm just about holding onto my full time job. I even go light headed but no one seems to care. I'm now faced with going private, thankfully I have private healthcare through work but not everyone does.

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Thyroid Disorders :: Memory Loss / Distortion

My mother had her thyroid and a benign tumour removed about 6 months ago. She lives 3 hours away from me, so I have seen her a few times but only for short intervals and we regularly speak on the phone. Since her operation I have noticed she is always tired (also due to her heart medication) and that she has become more of a glass half empty type of person. Recently my father had a heart attack (serious but my Dad is a trooper and is now recovering after surgery). I have spent the last week with my mother, and with her thyroid and stress of my father I became her personal punching bag. Her erratic mood swings, outbursts and obsessing over trivial matters are well documented relating to the thyroid in all the googling I have done. What I can't find is any information on her memory loss/memory distortion of the facts. To give 2 examples (of many): 1. My parents had a lawyer at the hospital to update their will, so I went out and sat in the foyer. I was on my phone looking at Facebook to fill in time and one of Mum's friends sat beside me. I put my phone away and chatted to her friend. On the way home Mum had a go a me  because her friend told her that I spent the whole time looking at my phone whilst she was trying to talk to me. 2. After leaving my niece's 21st, my Mum tells me that one of my brothers was very cold to her all night and didn't talk to her. A couple of hours later as everyone is heading off to bed, my mother says "So (my brother) didn't talk to you either" with which I replied "Yes we did, I spent quite a lot of time talking to him". My mother than lost it completely and started yelling that I had told her that my brother didn't speak to me. Though I can't find any information about this type of memory loss, I am hoping someone might be able to give me a heads up. Also if someone has been told by a family member about their erratic emotions I would love to hear your advice on how to bring it up with my mother.

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Bipolar Disorder :: Selective Memory Loss In Relationship

Been in a relationship with a bipolar disorder person ( i believe) and after a while into the relationship , she has the notion of hurting me in the situation when she is very much emotionally involved with me as in romance etc. Seems like she loses herself and starts scratching me . i kind of ignored earlier but when i wake her up kinda thing she completes looks puzzle and asks me dis she hurt me kinda thing. She also did mention lets breakup coz its gonna get worst then this but i must admit i was adamant and was sure i can find a solution for this and we can be happy together. Then came a point whereby she went through the same episode and woke to ask me did she stab me and when realized no, she went on saying this has to stop kinda thing since next she will go to suicidal mode etc. She also went on i just cant be as normal anymore to you since my mind has already shutting u down. That evening when i got in touch with her , she told me that its happening and she was somewhere alone in her office not sure what she was trying to do neither any recollection how she got there. She was infact awaken by the cleaner lady thankfully she said. She said "i love u more then my life" to me and that's the problem . The next day when i got in touch with her , she acted as though she has no recollection of what we had in between and she seems to have memory loss on all the places and events that she has been and was with me. She even started calling me by my real name instead of dear or darling how she used to. She is also doing her studies now, and i'm confused to whether to help her to recall things that we had in the past or let it be as not to distract her from her studies and help her to recollect once she is done with her studies and then seek medical help so that we can be on track again.

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My question how to prevent future memory loss cause sometimes it happens sometimes it does. And why. And does anyone think I would have said embarrassing things to the buddy's mom

Ps I'm not an alchohalic And I'm of legal drinking age and a responsible adult 90 percent of the time

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