Citalopram :: 10 Weeks - Anxious And Depressed Again
Jul 23, 2015
I've been on Citalopram for 10 weeks now. 2 weeks 10 mg, 5 weeks on 20mg, 3 weeks on 30mg. In my second week on 30mg I was back to my normal happy, confident self. Finally relief! Then last Saturday I felt the anxiety creeping back in & now I feel anxious & depressed again. My hand shakes & body jerks are back too. I don't know if I'm just having a blip but I seem to be going back to square one after that week of relief. Although I have only been on 30mg for 3 weeks. I'm just starting to feel like Citalopram isn't going to work. I also have a really fuzzy head. Has anyone else experienced a week of feeling great then back to square one? Should blips last as long as this?
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For the past three years, every time I smoke weed, I become extremely anxious and depressed. I always feel worthless, anxious, and extremely sad after I smoke - my mind produces really negative thoughts about my life, beliefs, self- image, as if all that I am and say is worthless. I feel this way even when I smoke around people who I am comfortable with. When I was in high school, I used to smoke weed on a frequent basis and feel so happy, calm and relaxed. All I want is that feeling again.
Does anyone know how I can feel good again when smoking?
It's strange - even when I THINK about smoking I get that anxious feeling!
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I'm a 29yr old male. I was put on citalopram for depression and anxiety. This will be my 3rd week. I'm really scared it wont work on me. I feel like i'm taking it but not seeing the benefits. I have read it can take 4 to 6 weeks to work. Is this the case? I'm getting more anxious and depressed at the thought that it not working.
Can someone please shed any light on this, and offer any support? I just want to be my happy old self, being in work is the worst, I feel i just want to run home, and every minute feels like an hour.
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I'm on week 7 of 10 mg, and am pleased to say that my pounding heart, dry mouth and nausea have disappeared, I've only had a couple of headaches, my jaw clenching and tensing up have almost gone. I'm still struggling sleeping but I've never been good at that anyway, so I'll just see how that goes. I don't feel like skipping through life every day, but I certainly don't feel really low any more, I just feel 'steady'. Stick with it everyone, and thank you for your support.
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I'm on week 12 20 mg and things are better that they were a month ago but my problem is negative thoughts/ intrusive thoughts as anyone still had this problem after taking this med so long ? I wake every morning with this problem
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I've been on 20mg of cit for just over 4 weeks now almost 5, and at first it was great. My mood picked up, anxiety went way down, and my OCD drastically went down. But now, I've been on a steady decline for almost 2 weeks and i feel like I'm at square one again. High anxiety, OCD, panic attacks, and no appetite and depression all over again. Obviously I need to something differently but I'm wondering if I just need an increase or just try a whole new med?
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HOW IT STARTED:
Yes, I was one of those annoying people who all the teachers liked.
Once, one of my professors even told me I was one of the "golden children" of my year. I suppose I worked so hard to get good grades because all my life I had been encouraged and enabled to do my best. I was used to success. In college I even overcame my shyness and gained a lot of good friends and a handful of real, true friends who I deeply care for. I had a part-time job in my fiend that I worked between classes, and I was looking forward to continuing my upward climb to success.
So when I lost my out-of-college job because the company had a financial catastrophe that made it impossible for them to hire me, I figured, "Hey, I'll just get another job and move on with my life. No big."
But almost a year later I still didn't have a job, and because I'm inherently introverted I had lost touch with most of my friends because they were all too far away to see in person and I'm terrible at keeping up with social media. I was living at home with my parents, sleeping in the spare bed in my sisters' room, and slowly realizing that all the people who were "Looking forward to seeing me succeed in the future" were going to be direly disappointed in me.
FIRST WAVE:
New Year 2013 brought on odd feelings. I still had hope that things would improve, but they consistently didn't. I lost a few big freelance clients that I was counting on because I made a few dumb mistakes, and that made things worse. I started crying in the bathroom for "no reason," not understanding why I was feeling so down and out when I still had potential, I just wasn't living up to it yet.
Fast forward a few months and I had basically given up on myself. I believed I was a loser, someone who had let down the many people who had trusted me with their wisdom and advice. I wasn't one of the "golden children," I was a pathetic fake who couldn't even call someone on the phone without feeling incredibly anxious, much less actually interview for a job. All the confidence I'd gained in college was gone and I felt even less sure of myself than I did in high school.
It was like the "real me" got locked in a room somewhere and I couldn't find her.
My mom noticed I was moody and finally confronted me about it, but instead of helping it only made me feel like she was even more disappointed in me and fed my unconfidence even more. Then, one day, after my mom got angry at me once again for being unable to communicate my real thoughts because I was so confused myself, my dad came out and let me sit there and cry until I had composed myself enough to speak. He was calm enough to keep me relatively calm and we discovered that the depression was probably coming from a few different sources. I was feeling lonely without my friends. I was back in my childhood home and reverting to the unconfident person I used to be. I was disappointed in myself and projecting imagined feelings of disappointment from others onto myself. I never got out of the house so I felt isolated. I wasn't making a steady income and that was stressing me out. Etc.
I decided to stop freelancing full time and get a job so I could at least get out of the house, make a steady income, and be around people. But after several interviews that were just awful because I either didn't have enough qualifications for that particular job or because I was having an off day and feeling really socially awkward, I didn't get any of the jobs.
SECOND WAVE:
I revamped my hope. But then it got crushed.
I'm still not as bad as I was last year, but I'm starting to feel like randomly crying again and sometimes my skin feels like it's going to wriggle off with how much I just want to get out of my house. I'm so afraid that I'm going to delve back into self-loathing-ville again, and I know that I sabotage myself when I'm like that. I so do not want to lost this tiny bit of momentum I've achieved, but I can't make things move faster. I can't get a job any faster, I can't get a car until I have money from a job, I can't get a job sometimes because I don't already have a car, I'm stuck, I'm stuck, I'm going crazy.
SO...
I know a lot of people around my age are going through things like this but for my particular situation does anyone know how to help me push through until things improve? I'm getting so tired of feeling so bad and I'm losing my energy trying to keep going. My parents are enabling me to stay home and do nothing but I don't want to stay home and do nothing! I want to get a job and be independent and have autonomy and start becoming who I used to be again so I can be a confident, awesome person! AAH!
Also, right now I'm not feeling so bad so I have a sense of humor, but in an hour or so I might be curled up in the bathroom crying into a towel so no one will hear me. I got on this forum in the first place because my skin was feeling antsy and I wanted to get away so badly and I wanted to know if other people felt the same way. Crazy mood swings, anyone?
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I'm 20 years old.
Right now im lightheaded, dizzy, anxious for one one week. I think it maybe had something to do with my fall, but im not sure. I was drunk that night, was walking and lost balance, falled on right side of head, no vomiting, no memory loss. Just the next day i felt like crap, not only hangover, but my head was hurting so bad on the left side. It was in July btw.. Then after that i felt weirder, had episodes of lightheadedness and i knew something was not right, i never had these things before. Then about 8 days ago it all started, i was working and just felt like i have weakness in body and lightheadedness, i felt terrible, my ears kinda "closed" for some 15 seconds, horrible feeling. That they i went home and slept all that day and from that day i feel like crap, my left side of head feels like pressure in there and behind eye. I was sleeping for 2 days and felt worse and worse. It was so bad i couldn't walk out off bed few steps, that was last drop, my mom called paramedics, I was taken to hospital, they did blood test, ct scan to my head, I had to wait like 6 hours until they told me results, and there was moment when i was sitting and felt worse condition in life, i was about to pass out, they then put me in bed, and i felt better within hour... After waiting for 6 hours they told me everything is okey, ct scan good, blood test good. Then some ear doctor came to see me, she said it could be bppv, so they sent me home with some medications. I had to take Medrol for 6 days, the first day of it was just horrible, my heart was pounding, couldn't sleep, i felt worse then before. So i consulted my family doctor and she told to stop taking them, so i took them for 3 days after that i felt terrible side effects, my headache was so bad, the worst ever, i felt my whole body was weak.No Onee told what I have, i dont think its BPPV maybe im wrong. I kept reading online about my symptoms and possible things that i could have, i was just getting more and more anxious, scared, just feel soo bad. I gotta say, before that i did 3 x rays to head, neck, all good, and i did ultrasonography to head, all good.
On 21 october i went to neurologist, she told me that everything seems okay, that i need to relax and only think positive, she asked me questions what I wanna do in future and things like that, that helped with my anxiety, but not with my dizziness, vertigo. Right now I'm waiting for 29 october, i got visit otolaryngologist, for consultation and audiogramm. It seems so far away, and i can just guess whats wrong with me... Right now symptoms are: vertigo, dizziness, when i move my head side to side its much worse and start to feel pressure in head, if i hold my head straight, almost no dizziness, im sensitive to light, i cant sit long time to computer or smartphone, max 1 hour, if i sit longer i get weird feeling and dizziness, i hate going to sleep now, when i lay in bed i feel like falling, everything is spinning, if i lay on any side it gets even worse, like my head is spinning, but others thing stay in position, plus if i lay on sides i get more head pressure. What helps me walking and making myself something to eat is medical head holder, its used for neck injuries, but it helps me!! Well the dizziness is less with it and im taking betahistine 24mg 3 times a day and it makes dizziness less. And i got some pain around heart, but that could be from anxiety and all time that i sleep on my back. I just wanna get back to normal life, its so hard with dizziness, can't do basic things, im listening to motivational speeches and videos that is what helps me everyday. I was thinking maybe its like message from higher powers, that i need to change, because i really need to had some bad habits, drinking, smoking and things like that. Right now im making something like diary, i write down how i feel everyday and i wrote things that i need to accomplish, when i will feel good I will start doing them one by one!
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My partner has been on Lisinopril for the last 2 weeks, he has been suffering with feeling anxious and his Tinnitus has been a lot worse than usual also not sleeping like he normally does, we have our own BP machine and taking it at home it's fine often 120/73, but at the Doctors it can be 150/100 is this just white coat, my BP is almost the same at home and at the doctors as his, he has not taken one today and is going to see how he is over the weekend and try to get an earlier appointment, when speaking to a nurse recently she thought that he didn't have high BP, so why is he on them then?
Sorry I forgot to mention when on Lisinopril my partners BP is as low as 97/66, is this too low?
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Last week I was under the weather so started taking Paracetamol. The problem is that I was a) A bit loose with the guidelines (i.e. 4-6 hours, more like every 2-3) and b) I was taking Lemsip and Sudafed when obviously you are not supposed to take different types of paracetamol.
On Friday I went out for a few drinks (lager & vodka). Since Saturday I have been feeling incredibly anxious (not a normal character trait) and on Sunday had what I can only describe as my first ever panic attack. Since then I have been feeling anxious, sometimes light-headed and heart racing.
Sunday was the lowpoint and it was starting to improve and by Thursday I felt back to normal…so I went to the gym. 30 mins into what was not an overly strenuous routine, I was back to feeling light headed, anxious etc – just sometimes coming over me in waves.
Could this be linked to the over-use of paracetamol combined with the booze or have I maybe something more serious to worry about?
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I went to see my GP only five days ago for clinical depression and I was taken off mirtazapine 30mg that I had been on for roughly six months and put onto sertraline 50mg. I was advised by my GP to reduce the mirtazapine down to 15mg immediately. My question is this.... Is it just me or has Sertraline made anyone else feel worse? As of day one I've felt like what I can only describe as a 'zombie'.
It feels like I'm constantly wading through thick mud, I now feel constantly anxious, I have no appetite whatsoever, I wake up at 3-4am and can't get back to sleep because all these thoughts keep whizzing around in my head, when it is time to get up I feel utterly shattered. I don't want to go out and everything I used to find enjoyable I cannot now face. I have a 7 y/o son whom I love and adore but feel like I can't even look after myself at the moment let alone him, the guilt of this is now exacerbating my feelings.
The thought of facing another day feeling like this is terrifying me, let alone moving forward with life. I've restarted with my private councillor and am avoiding alcohol etc as my GP advised, but just feel terrible.
I'm not expecting miracles overnight or anything but I think I'm just searching for some reassurance I guess?
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I have been on these steroids for 1 week following pneumonia.
They have cleared chest but have left me exhausted through lack of sleep and feeling constantly anxious. Has anyone else suffered the same side effects. Finished last dose today.
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I was prescribed gabapentin by my ent specialist for sinus headaches which i still suffer from after three operations. I have been taking 300mg six times a day for about 18 months and have found that i have become moody, anxious, and find it very difficult to unwind or hold a decent conversation with anyone as my concentration level seems to be next to nothing. Does anyone think this could be the tablets?
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So I know my anxiety increases a lot prior to my period, but is it normal to experience physical symptoms of anxiety without feeling mentally anxious? I guess you can. I posted about digestive problems so that appeared without me actually feeling anxious. It's just unnerving. Yesterday was normal, today I woke up with diarrhea and the shaky feeling inside me. Tonight I feel tingling in my arm and tightness in my shoulders and head. But I don't "feel" anxious. My period is probably just a few days away. This is so hard to deal with!
I feel like this is another women's issue that no one talks about. I had no idea it could go on for so long and cause such a laundry list of symptoms. Why isn't there more discussion about it? It's like when I went through infertility. Another taboo women's topic.
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I gave up my job because I was so stressed and such an emotional wreck. I 've gone back to uni to do another course, I have tasks to complete and I just don't feel motivated to do anything at all. I m doing work experience and I don't care anymore. I m On list to see therapist at the end of month. I'm usually active person and maybe it's the anxiety that kept me going but all I do now Is not to do anything at all I lay about and sleep I postpone everything I need to do is this normal? I have no energy or drive, has anyone else experienced this?
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I have had a really tough year, and was prescribed citalopram 12 weeks ago, started on 10mg for 2 weeks then 20mg ever since. I haven't been feeling any better, I have been going through a break up so its hard to know what's heartbreak and what's depression but the only thing that's seemed to be improving is anxiety which was taking over my life.
I still wake up most days not wanting to move, feeling hopeless and like I don't want to be here (I wouldn't physically hurt myself) and non stop crying and fear of the future and low self esteem. I used to be so confident and outgoing and happy, my world has crashed in the last year and recently I spoke to my doctor who has raised the dose to 40mg which I have now been taking for 3 days. I feel absolutely worse and again not sure if it's circumstantial. I feel embarrassed In Front of my friends and family as one minute I'll be crying and struggling to breath having a panic attack and the next I'll be laughing and smiling. Has anyone else suffered in the same way? I am hoping that this dosage is what I need but I'm just having teething problems. Right now though I feel very scared and worried it's not going to do the trick if I feel like this.
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So I really didn't know where or how else to express this but this seems like a good place. To be honest, I have a great life. I absolutely love my job, have amazing friends and my home life is wonderful. I'm not to happy about being a little overweight but guess what? I'm hitting the gym and have already lost 5 lbs. In the money department I'm doing okay, could always be better but I'm paying my bills and saving where I can.
Yesterday I woke up exhilarated and ready to take on the world. I had a great day at work and a good work out. This morning I woke up completely depressed and bummed out. I have no idea why this happening. I honestly have no reason to be upset or depressed yet I just wanted to crawl into a hole or be invisible all day long and just had this feeling of depressed all day long, even as I'm writing this.
This seems to happen to me a lot! Sometimes it's like the example above and sometimes it can be multiple times a day. I'll go for a couple hours feeling blessed and happy and then out of nowhere it goes away and I'm depressed and feel like I want to disappear. This can go back and forth several times in a day sometimes.
I'm not sure if I'm just nuts or if this is normal. Anyways, I figured I'd put up a post and see what you all have to say. If you're the same way, if you've gotten any good advice. Thanks for taking the time to read though.
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I have been on meds for just over a year now, tsh now down to 0.62 was 69 when diagnosed have made lifestyle changes as in reduced working hours started on 150mg then put down to 100mg now back up to 125 mg I do feel better but still get very tired and anxious about the silliest of things almost paranoid have no self confidence or sex drive (just as well I'm single) have zero interest in a social life and will make any excuse to avoid going out apart from going to work, the mother of ones of my sons friends is hypo and her gp prescribed antidepressants alongside her meds just wondered if anyone has any thoughts on this due to see GP again next week and thinking of asking if I may have a touch of depression.
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This friend I had she stayed with me and my boyfriend for a week and a half because she broke up with her boyfriend. She really hurt me badly. She told me and my boyfriend that she needed a break from her boyfriend and then she starts calling him and going back to his place to spend quality time with him. She does not keep to her word she said she was going to go out for Easter with me and my boyfriend and her young son then she changes it and says that she is going to spend Easter with her boyfriend and son. This girl does not know what she wants. She leaves him every time they fight and then she gets back together with him.
My boyfriend and i heard her say that she was back with her boyfriend so yesterday we asked her to leave
She told me all i do is tell stories which i do not and she called me a bitch.
We opened our place to this girl and her son and it hurts me so much i could not even sleep at all last night. I was crying, I was angry and hurt and this is the second time she hurt me because last year she harassed me over the phone and said verbally abusive stuff to me last year in texts messages to me to where i had to take her to court
After all that i have done and been good to her she treats me and my boyfriend like dirt and it hurts
It hurts so much The her boyfriend goes to the same mental health facility me and my boyfriend goes too and I don't want to go back there at all while he is there because he has caused me pain too and my boyfriend does not like that
I have been crying all night and just so angry i don't understand why she does this to me and my boyfriend
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I have suicidal thoughts every day, real vivid ones, I know where, when, how etc. sometimes I cry and I'm not sure why and when i start it can be hours till I've stopped completely, I don't mean all out bawling btw, just teary really, but that's the bad days most the time I feel fairly content, I can laugh and joke and go out with friends. I think I've lost my purpose in life I feel like I don't know why I'm here or what I'm meant to do but I don't feel what I imagine depression to feel like.
Throughout this though the good and bad I think of suicide every day like I said but every thought ends with me being found in time, ends with me being saved.
Do you think I need help and if so where do you go and what do you say? I'm not good at expressing myself or talking to people, none of friends or family know I feel this way. Is this normal ?
Do I just need to man up and get on with life?
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I really dont know whats wrong with me. I'm 24, have a good job and work 33 hours a week. I have a 4 yr old daughter who is at school and a partner.
I feel really down and upset most of the time. I can't shake it off. I'm miserable. Cry all the time. Have no patience. Want to be on my own. Don't want to be with my partner and been having an affair for 12 months. The littlest thing really annoy me.
all my family live close by but i rarely see them. I have a mother that chooses her wife beater of a bf over her children/grandchildren. I have a dad that i used to be really close with to now a dad that doesn't speak to me doesn't care. I need my parents support but i don't have it. I see my friends have such supportiveparentss and i just wish i had that. I know im 24 but i still need them.
I got pregnant at 19 and was not ready. My partner pretty much said he would finish it if i didn't have the baby. I had no support during or after the pregnancy. I used to cry every day of my pregnancy and every day whilst on maternity.
i gained 4 stone during that time but lost it after 1 yr on slimming world. The past 9 months i've been feeling lost and all along and slowly piled two stone bk on.
I wanna go to the docs and get help of to someone for help i can cope anymore. I thought i cud but i can't. I don't have any time for me. On my own.
My day consists of waking up getting ready and my child. Breakfast dropping to school. Start work finish work. Pick child up. Go home tidy up. Feed dog cook tea. Bath and bed for child. Cook our tea. Have a shower go to bed.
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